Without You!! –

09Nov09

I’ve tried
tried like for ever
forever, not to think of you
you and your feelings, here they still remain
remain in my eyes, my heart and in my dreams

dreams of you and me, like am-a-kin
am-a-kin to your last breathe
breath of your vision, that make me lose my own reflections
reflections that have me go against me

Without you, am not me and I just cannot be me
I feel like I’ve been left out frozen
frozen on this frozen sea, baie-bee
baby, its you I believe in and in only you I believe !!

the day we believed that we were in love
I loved those sweet n’ lovely kisses and hugs
hugs that we shared, which couldn’t last so while
but those sweet memories still bring on a smile

somehow, your warmth can still be felt
can be felt through my inner projections
the dissolute indulgence in sensual evolution
why does love seem to be the only solution?

n am still waiting here
to get back the love that we once shared
to share those lovely feelings, all over again
in you arms I wanna live my life again

Baie-bee
without you, am not me and I just cannot be me
I want you in my life, do come back to me
its you I believe in and in only you I believe
Baby – Come – Back – To – Me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S: Did you eye one those repeating words, in every two lines..? I made it this way..
achha hai na..

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Everyone tries not to be lonely!!

21Oct09

I walk a while
and then I see,
no one’s there, standing by my side

I feel the pain
and its no dream,
am a feather
kicked out from its rhyme

guilty, it must feel
mis-hap, is wot I call this trial
lovelorn, I must seem
contrite, my heart does makes me a freak !

everyone tries not to be lonely
do you see no reason for these cries
screaming deep, do you feel no sorry
albeit, u’d love to see my wretched demise

in the grey of dusk
in the darkness of ignorance
on the roads of sadness
unfathomable to my conscience
striding down, I feel all alone,
the failure has rendered me powerless to atone
my grief comes with the astonishment I own
Am I the biggest loser, the world has ever known
will I shrive myself
would there be another life
why do the sins make me shiver
why do I still shutter those windows from light
and am still feeling so lonely
the pain, the agony
the grievance that I perceived
and the burning wrath on me

without a single wish to conceive
banished from the happiness, here I rot
a dreamer, is what I am
I live my life without a loving thought

But future is what I seek
this time, I don’t wanna surrender
I realise am not like those others, dear
I got love in my heart and its gonna last forever

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Knockin’ on heaven’s door – My version

07Oct09

The night, seems dark and so bleak
I don’t love dreams anymore
The fear of death has made me weak
Feels like I’m knockin’ on heaven’s door

Knock-knock-knockin’ on heaven’s door

As a troubled kid am standing bare
With a broken heart and a withered stare
Cold uneasiness, hangs in the air
And I feel I’m knockin’ on heaven’s door

Knock-knock-knockin’ on heaven’s door
Knock-knock-knockin’ on heaven’s door

Mama save me from this doom
I can’t brace it anymore
The dark clouds have subdued the moon
Feels like I’m knockin’ on heaven’s door

Mama I ain’t see no lovely Roses
For am held on to the Guns
I can feel the death, as it closes
Don’t I understand, that my life is done
And I Just keep knockin’ on heaven’s door
As I stand there knockin’ on heaven’s door
Knock-knock-knockin’ on heaven’s door
Knock-knock-knockin’ on heaven’s door
Knock-knock-knockin’ on heaven’s door

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Had there been ….

26Sep09

The future was on mind, the path sublime
but then I see myself covered by the haze
hard times come on way, but am I ever gonna learn
Had there been light, I would have chosen to return

love is strange, it often lets you down
takes you like a roller coaster,
through all those ups and downs
Had there been love, I would have crossed the bounds

too much I rely on hope, sometimes it blinds me from the truth
the trust I find in others, the pain that it soothes
the strength that it weakens through delusions,
is it the evil or does it lead me to my goal
Had there been glory, I would have found my colorful soul

In destiny do I believe
my thoughts slaved under its control
feelings choose dejection, nothing excited than sheer failure’s frustration
Had there been luck, I would have defied my future’s dusk

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Learn to Lie…!!!

24Sep09

Do you feel that there’s a need for you to lie, and you’re not capable of doing it..??
And even if you give a try, your untruthful statement always fails to deceive others perceptions?
well then, I simply think u either suffer from Parkinson’s disease, or you’re just too dumb to find a reason to exist on planet earth, or may be you’re still a child(Children learn to lie convincingly only after the age of four and a half years. Before this, they assume there is only one point of view, which is their own and they simply don’t understand why others don’t see their view).

Now you wanna lie, but the opposite person is an adept psychologist(say your wife). Remember, Key to lying is not in the tecnique but in the face of the one who is lying. So, how do we do it..
Well, here are some tips…
1. Believe in your lie.
People can only catch you if there’s a asynchronization in your facial expression and body movements. So, trust in the lie, to have a grip on your emotions.
2. Do not hesitate to make eye contact. The failure of which is only gonna be a disaster. Good if you’re hooked on a telephone.
3. Do not speak quickly or have excessive fluctuations in your pitch of voice. You’ll only get caught if you can’t stabilize yourself.
4. Do not hesitate when questioned in detail. Cook up some story before hand. But if something pops up adhoc, you gotta act wiser.
5. Be a psychopath for that moment. There is an intrinsic link between emotional connection and effective lying. I know, you are scared to lie to those whom you know well and care for. But, a psychopath liar doesn’t feels bad or guilty of what he does.
6. Mention a few specifics like the name of a place, time or bring in a new character in your concoction. People trust in specific details.
7. Do not let the lie be sequential or choronological in order. You can someup things in the end. If the lie is too much sequential, it only gives an impression that you’ve come prepared to lie.
8. Stop unnecessary finger pointing and nervous foot tapping and do not hesitate to shake your wet hands firmly.
9. Addin a few humans to support your claim.
Having someone tell you that you’ve seem osama bin laden on the street would only make you laugh but having a second person to tell you the same will make you curious. When the third person speaks of the same, you start doubting your mind, and before the fourth person starts off with his statement, Osama is already walking down the street, in your mind.

Some interesting facts about lying:
Back in 1995, a security gaurd of then French President, raised a hoax in a NATO meeting, that the Russian journalist sitting in the front row had an inbuilt gun in his camera by indicating to the microphone which was supposed to be the silencer. The convinced macho President went up to the russian with his gaurds and punched the guy right on his nose. The camera was destroyed in a view to discover the gun, which only went vain. Later, everyone laughed at the President and the Security gaurd’s ignorance. Only after a few years, the Guard disclosed the truth of creating such an hoax for the only reason of boredom at the meeting.

In another such case, some one from ‘NewYork Liberty’ Women’s basket ball team sent up a fake notice saying Vanessa Hayden of Los Angeles Sparks is actually a man and shouldn’t be let to play in their next clash. And much to the embarassment, Vanessa was asked to go through a diagnosis test before the match took place, to confirm her identity as a female. A case was filed against NewYork liberty, but they were let through without any fine impositions, coz no one from their team knew of the culprit or any such statement..

If you think these two cases are not suffice to prove the dumbness of human beings to differentiate truth from lies, there’s another one to add. Another interesting case happened in hyderabad recently after the death of YSR(our ex-Chief minister of state). After a week of his death, everyone was telling each other that a curfew has been imposed in the city where no one was allowed to go out after 5pm, becoz of a clash in Central and State ministry leaders. Narayanaguda, a heavily populated colony in city, was the only colony which felt so deserted that day, coz the rumour did not spread through beyond that place. Later a message was broadcasted on a local tv chanel saying that there was no such thing and the curfew was just an hoax.

Now comes the most important part of this blog. All the news about the French President, Vanessa Hayden of LA SParks, and the curfew in narayanaguda, is fake. … Yes, they’re all fake which have been concocted by me, only to disclose another art of lying. We all like to deceive and at the same time we all love to believe.

thanks for the patience guys.

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A few crazily stupid Q&A’s…

15Sep09

Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4… ‘But his father had taught him to be respectful of the elderly.’ – The Alchemist

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can & catch air? – Shaf’s head

What is the last thing you watched on TV? – India vs Srilanka final match

Without looking, guess what time it is? – 5:05 AM

Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? – 5:14 AM.. It’s time to sleep I guess. Hav to go for work later

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? – The sound of our freaking fan

When did you last step outside? What were you doing? – Yestday mornin, to my office. Not to freak out for sure…

Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at? – An article on Cotard’s Syndrome(Its a feeling that you’re dead, a walking corpse, tht u’ve lost your body or a part of it, tht ur flesh is rotting and u can feel worms crawling inside ur skin and such crazy stuff….)

What are you wearing? – Just Jeans. I love to sleep in my jeans…

When did you last laugh? – Yesterday evening, thinkin of my mngr’s stupidity.

What is on the walls of the room you are in? – My dance group batchsnap, and a guitar.

Seen anything weird lately? – A camel’s head decorated on a chair

What do you think of this quiz? – A sort of timepass

What is the last film you saw? – Aliens in the Attic

If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy? – A perfect wife probably .. Na na, wait a sec….I’d go for a Porsche Carrera

Tell something about you that people dunno! – That I can be angry sometimes…’My Violent Streak is vicious’

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? – I’ll club this world into one, erasing all these boundaries. ‘Enter any place at your will’..

Do you like to Dance? – Every step I take is a dance move!!

Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? – ‘Zaara’, I guess..

Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? – I don’t want a boy.. Period!

Would you ever consider living abroad? – That’d be my first priority

What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? – ‘This was the guy I had been waiting to spend my time with.. Come zubair, lets hav a drink(non-alcoholic)!!’

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